After years of thinking I knew my Jabberwocky, I have recently learned that the Jabberwocky is not all together what I thought he was. Oh, he is not completely different either, but some very important characteristics had somehow completely evaded me. What? You are probably scratching your head, thinking I’ve taken too many meds today, but that isn’t it at all. It is just that the past few months have allowed me to see the Jabberwocky in a new light. Now I know that my migraines are just part of a larger problem, and armed with this new knowledge, I hope to be able to confront my foe with more success.
So, you may ask, what is the larger problem that has been contributing to my migraines? Well, it seems that I have myofascial pain syndrome. I still can’t explain what that means with much eloquence, but I can tell you that it is kind of like having the feeling you get when you sleep wrong in at least one part of your body most days. One day you may have pain in your hip. Another day it might be your elbow. Your neck, your shoulder, your back, your knee. Some days it may be just a mild annoyance in one part of your body. Another day it may be a searing pain in most of your muscles. You might wake up feeling fine and slip into the pain halfway through the day, or you might wake in the middle of the night with it. You just never know when it will creep up on you. The worst part, you don’t know when the pain is cause for alarm and when you should ignore it. For the most part, if I can’t remember doing something to cause the pain, I assume it will eventually pass. I’ve been doing this most of my life.
Okay, this is where you say: “If you have had the pain for that long, why are you just now realizing that you have this condition?” Well, that is an easy one. You see, this condition runs in families. My mom had it, and I suspect her mother had it, too. When I would complain of a pain, my mother would ignore me or tell me that it was normal, so I just learned that the pain was something to endure. Part of enduring it has been adopting postures that reduce the pain. Very often this has meant adopting very bad posture. It is this response to the pain throughout my body that has, in part, been responsible for my migraines.
So, now that I have this insight, what am I doing to bring about a change? Ah, that sounds like a good topic for my next entry. Till then, hope you are pain free!