Another year…

I’ve been quiet, and that is mostly because I have been feeling quite down about the state of my recovery. I knew that I may not be back to my pre-surgery self at this point (one year after my surgery), but I guess I hoped that I would be. The unfortunate reality is that I am not. Although I am much better than I was a year ago, I am still far from where I was the day before my surgery. And that is depressing. So, I am setting three goals for myself in the coming year:

  • Build my physical strength and endurance so I can eventually get back to activities that I love and miss.
  • Continue to work on finding ways to decrease my pain and the spasticity in my back.
  • Focus on strategies to improve my mental state.

Have you set any goals for yourself in the new year?

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Retrospective – 100 Days

I thought this would be a good time to reflect on my recovery and to remind myself how far I have come in a relatively short period of time. These are posts from my CaringBridge site. I set it up prior to my surgery to help me communicate with my friends/family. Hope this is of some help to those of you who are just beginning this journey. Search my site for more retrospective posts. 

The “100 day” Post-op update:

We have now passed the 100 day mark (actually did that just over a week ago), and to mark the momentous occasion we schlepped our way to Houston and back to see my doctors. After the mandatory X-rays and MRIs, I am happy to say that I have been given permission to start gentle bending and stretching. For those of you who have been following my recovery, here is a rundown of my current condition:

Pathology reports indicate that the tumor was an extremely rare type of spinal tumor: a melanotic schwannoma. They will continue to monitor me to make sure the tumor behaves in a benign manner. To that end, I have to go back in about three months for my next check-up.

Progress
– Neurosurgeon says they did remove all of the tumor and it looks like the recovery is progressing well.
– Reconstructive surgeon says the soft tissue seems to be recovering well.
– I can walk several miles at a time over most surfaces (inclines and cobble stones still cause problems) at my pre-op pace.
– I can tie my own shoes (with some difficulty, but…).
– I have transitioned back to sleeping in my bed now that I do not need to be so careful about my sleeping position.
– I can pick things up myself when I drop them (as long as they are not heavy).
– I have a prescription to resume physical therapy (three times a week for three months – to work on strength and flexibility).
– With increased ease of movement, my pain levels have improved (but I will be working with someone local to try to get the remaining pain/discomfort completely under control).

Continued challenges
– Sitting is still uncomfortable, and riding in a car is still torture (makes the daily commute really fun).
– Although I can walk (and look fairly normal doing it), I do not feel stable doing it – so crowded places make me very nervous.
– I experience a lot of tightness/discomfort in my back which throws my gait off when I walk. When this is combined with the continued nerve issues in my left leg, it means I must concentrate on walking. It is not something that happens naturally. Walking and talking at the same time can present a challenge.
– Climbing stairs is still a challenge. I can do it. I do it every day at work, but you don’t want to get stuck behind me.
– I have what seems to be intercostal neuralgia (perhaps as a result of the nerve root they had to sacrifice to get all of the tumor out). Hoping we can get improvements with physical therapy, massage and pain management.

The doctors say I should expect the pain and discomfort for at least the next year. Most of it should diminish with time, but some of the nerve pain may be here from now on.