I’ll put my armor on…
I’ll put my armor on…
So, we want to get better, right? Who doesn’t! Well, Jane McGonigal thinks she can help us. Check out her TEDTalk and let me know what you think.
Death must be so beautiful. To lie in the soft brown earth, with the grasses waving above one’s head, and listen to silence. To have no yesterday, and no to-morrow. To forget time, to forgive life, to be at peace.
SYLVIA PLATH, The Bell Jar
Ah… so here we sit, you and I, and you ask why am I here. I am here because the Jabberwocky has taken over my life and this is the beginning of my journey to take my life back.
You see, it began when I was sixteen. Now, almost thirty years later, I can look back and see how much of my life has been stolen by the beast. Days spent fighting through the pain to try to have a normal life, nights twisting in agony, tears rolling down my cheeks. Then, in July, it reached a new low. The pain had been so bad, and had gone on like that for so many days, I really couldn’t stand it any more. I was trying to drive myself home from work, and I thought: “If I drive off this bridge, right here, right now, I can end it.”
Of course, I didn’t really want to end my life. But, I was so desperate to find some way to escape from the pain!
A few days later when the fog lifted, I realized how very serious I had been when I considered ending my life. I mentioned it to a few people, but not being migraine suffers, I think they thought I was exaggerating. But I wasn’t. It really is that bad. So, I decided that I would begin this blog, not only to give myself a place to express myself and vent my frustrations and hopefully my eventual victory over the monster, but also to share my experiences with others.
Maybe you suffer from migraines and you feel alone because the people around you don’t understand your suffering. Or perhaps someone in your life is also tormented by the jabberwocky, and you are trying to gain some insight to help you cope with them (I know it must be hard to live with us). Whatever your reason for coming here, I hope you are able to take something away that will make your stuggle easier.